crochet, meds, life and more

Today I finished crocheting a beautiful top. All that's left, is to sew it together. I was making it for Tati, but she said she didn't want it. So, I hope I can find someone who would like it as it's too small for me. Too bad too, cause I love it. I'll be taking pictures of it and posting it here later today. I'm now working on a sweater for DH. I promised him last year and just couldn't find one to make. Then when I found one I liked, it didn't have his size. So, I found a simple one and it's coming along pretty quickly. Won't be long til it's finished. I'm also working on two afghans but I ran out of yarn, and they are both ombre's. One I can order more yarn in the same color, but the other I can't as it's discontinued yarn. So, I'll use one of the solid colors in the ombre to finish it. Hopefully it won't look bad. Again I'll take pics.

Life has been sort of slow not much going on except crocheting. I haven't given up on the dieting yet, but I'm stuck right now. I'll be walking starting today, as well as Monday going back to Curves. Lordy how I miss exercising. Not much else I can do since I begged my doctors to fix my meds. One was making me gain weight and quickly. Thank goodness I got that one changed. Also am now on estrogen because of hot flashes that soak me. Talk about night sweats, well I get everyday sweats. And it interferes with my life. They say sweating is good, but I don't think they mean the way I sweat. Just a little bit of exercise, or housecleaning even and I am soaked. Even when I play pool I soak.

Going out Saturday night with the girls. Gonna go listen to a band, and dance. Can't wait, gonna be a lot of fun with 8 of us. Of course I'm the oldest, but the craziest. LOL.

Well, I'm off to be a good wife and clean. Be back later to add pics.

Didn't work

Well the toviaz didn't work and changing the frequency hasn't worked yet. So now I have to go back and change the frequency again. This is getting to be a pain in the ass. LOL That's funny considering where the interstim is located.

Just upped the dosages on my meds. Seems I'm more of a bitch than usual and that's all part of my illness. Well, I guess that's not too bad considering it's been years since they had to be adjusted. Hopefully I'll be nicer to my poor DH, he seems to take the brunt of my illness.

I started a new diet Monday and still exercising. We'll see if I do better. I so need to lose this weight. I should be walking but it's cold out and I'm just to lazy. I need to get motivated. I'll try.

Well, Christmas is almost here which means another B-day for me. Yup getting up there in numbers. Sa La Vie As for Christmas shopping, I still need to get more gifts. I don't mind, I kind of like shopping. I just don't like the people. I tend to spend too much but I have fun doing it. LOL

My New Year resolutions this year consist of making my self thinner and healthier, and spending more time with my mom. Last years resolution was to exercise and lose weight. Well, I stuck with the exercise even if I barely lost weight. I mean really 15 pounds in a year is shit. Let's face it, I love to eat. So if I have to only complete one resolution, I would say spending more time with mom.

I'm a crummy daughter and need to show her more that I care. She's not gonna be here forever, so I need to enjoy her now. I mean she's a pain in the ass and a bitch to boot, but she's still my mom. I kinda ignored her this whole year which is making me feel like garbage. So maybe her and I could go to the movies, out to lunch, shopping, or whatever once a week. Not only would it be good for me, but I think it would be good for her.

Well, that's it for now. try to come back next week, to keep progress on my dieting and the saga of the pee problem.

Battle of the Bulge

I didn't weigh myself today, I forgot before I ate and I never do it after I eat. So it will have to wait til next week. I think I did this subconsciously. I mean last week I totally screwed up and I'm still a little scared. Oh well, I'll wait. I did walk Thursday and today. I'm a little sore, but feel good otherwise. I didn't walk Friday because I went to the Urologist instead. I need to get fixed. I am sick and tired of peeing the bed every night and having accidents during the day sometimes. I told him the interstim isn't working any more and he needs to do something else. He gave me Toviaz to try for a month and we're going to change my frequency on the interstim. If that doesn't work, we'll find something else. He promised not to leave me hanging, but explained that my bladder is where it belongs, so it's something else. I feel like a reject.

I think I'll talk David into buying some fish to cook for supper tonight. I feel like fish, I am actually sick of chicken and pork, so maybe a good piece of fish with a salad would be nice. I think that I'll look up some recipes on the computer to find a good one to cook tonight.

I've been crocheting my afghans again. Boy, are they going to be pretty. They're the same style and similar color schemes just one is dark and the other is light. One is for my bedroom and the other for the living room. Can't wait til they're done. I also started on a shawl for myself for sitting in the living room when watching TV, it's lavender and I made up the style. Coming along nicely if I say so myself. Oh yea, I am. :) Not planning on making any tops for a while with the weight loss going on, so when these items are done I think I'll try making some sox. I mean feet stay pretty much the same. LOL

OK, I'm out of here. til next week

Fell off the Wagon

Well I didn't write on Sunday because I was down on myself for not losing any weight. In fact I didn't even weigh myself this week because all week long I ate out. I didn't follow my diet and I know I either gained or just stayed the same. I am so disappointed in myself. I know better. I was doing so good. Well I'm back to dieting and exercising and trying harder than ever not to go out to dinner. I am just so sick of cooking. I know there is food out there to eat for dieters but when I get in a restaurant I never think diet, I just think food. I can't get too down on myself or I will give up and that is a no no. I need to do this. I want to do this. I can do this.

With the weather getting cooler, I will be walking more. I plan to walk tomorrow. Not sure about Friday, but probably will as I won't be walking on Saturday. Sunday seems like a good day to walk too. I just don't want to over do it but I don't want to sit on my lazy butt either. Why do I make this out to be so hard when in all reality it's not. Well, not that hard. It sure as hell isn't easy. It took me 2 months to talk myself into exercising and now look at me, 5 days a week and I'd go nuts if I miss a day. Now, if I could only be like that for walking. :) I just want to fit in my clothes again. I have some awesome clothes.

I guess, I'll be back on Sunday and have a loss or at least be where I left off. If not, I'm just gonna mark the last week to a giant screw up. And in all reality I know there will be more of those. LOL I am human after all.

two posts in one week

Wow, two posts in one week. What's up with that? First I don't write for months, then I'm dropping in weekly, and now twice in one week. Something freaky with that. Don't get used to it, eventually I'll forget again, LOL. I just thought I'd share some news. I started walking yesterday. You would have laughed if you could have heard me talking to myself. Thank goodness for my ipod, it looked like I was singing. :) First I started with, "I can't do this, it hurts, I need to stop". Then I'd say; "shut up, you can do this, just keep going". This was just until the end of the road and it's a short road. LOL. I finally made it to the end of the road I was gonna turn around and go back home, you know start small short trips until I could walk longer and farther. Well I kept walking, and walking. I ended up going around the block which is about a half a mile. So it turned out to be a long walk. it was hot so I was sweating like a pig too. I finally got home and wanted to just die, actually felt good, from heat stroke. Well last night I started with mega leg cramps and I still have them today. I think I pushed it just a bit too much. But I don't care, I'll be doing it again on Thursday. I figure I'll walk every other day to start, then go to every day. When that becomes comfortable I'll add more distance. Eventually I'll be walking to and from exercise every day. I should then be dropping the pounds just a bit faster as well as toning up. I so am on a roll right now and even with the winter coming I'm not giving up. I'll just dress comfortable. Yesterday I was weighed and measured at Curves and I've lost 15 pounds and inches. My legs and arms are thinning out. My stomach is going down. Finally I'm starting to get a shape. Well, I had one before, round, now I'm going toward an hourglass. A big one, more like a three hourglass but eventually I will be an hour. OK, I had to add that info, will be back on Sunday.

new week and 2 more pounds

Well it's another week and 2 more pounds, and I am feeling great. This week is the week I get weighed and measured through curves. I find out exactly how much I've lost for the month and how many inches. They say the inches are the most important, but let me tell you, if you're not losing pounds, you feel like you're just stagnating. I know I did. I was exercising but not dieting and was dropping inches but no weight. I felt awful. But now, I feel great. Now if I was walking I'd feel a lot better and would be dropping more. I just don't seem to have the energy to do that. Also, I'm scared of the pain it causes. I know eventually I'll feel better, but the pain to start is just unbearable and irritating. Maybe I'll try today.

Went to the doctor found out my stupid asthma is turning into copd. Lucky, lucky me. Maybe now I should quit smoking. Got my flu shot and my pneumonia shot. So I'm all set for cold and flu season. Now if the allergy season would just end, things would be great. Well, not much to talk about, so I'm off to start some laundry and go take a walk, or at least try. That's all I can do, is try a little at a time until eventually I can walk a mile or so. Wish me good luck.

more weight loss

Well I came back. I lost another 2 lbs this week making the total so far 13. YAY, doing the happy dance. I definitley am doing something right. Oh I feel so good. I also reached another goal of mine, I got into a pair of jeans. Yup, I haven't been able to wear any of my jeans for a year. and I refused to buy new ones in bigger sizes so it was mostly sweats for pants. Needless to say we hardly ever went out. But now I fit in a pair of jeans. Soon I'll be in the 18's and I have a ton of those because I was that size forever. well no more. I am going down. No more fat nana with the soft pillows. Nope not me.

We played pool in a tournament this weekend and it sure felt great to wear my jeans and be comfortable. They weren't too tight where I couldn't sit down, but I did notice the legs are really baggy. I must be losing in my legs faster than my stomach. Oh well, who cares where as long as I lose, right. I'm gonna run now be back next week and hopefully I'll have more good news.