Didn't work

Well the toviaz didn't work and changing the frequency hasn't worked yet. So now I have to go back and change the frequency again. This is getting to be a pain in the ass. LOL That's funny considering where the interstim is located.

Just upped the dosages on my meds. Seems I'm more of a bitch than usual and that's all part of my illness. Well, I guess that's not too bad considering it's been years since they had to be adjusted. Hopefully I'll be nicer to my poor DH, he seems to take the brunt of my illness.

I started a new diet Monday and still exercising. We'll see if I do better. I so need to lose this weight. I should be walking but it's cold out and I'm just to lazy. I need to get motivated. I'll try.

Well, Christmas is almost here which means another B-day for me. Yup getting up there in numbers. Sa La Vie As for Christmas shopping, I still need to get more gifts. I don't mind, I kind of like shopping. I just don't like the people. I tend to spend too much but I have fun doing it. LOL

My New Year resolutions this year consist of making my self thinner and healthier, and spending more time with my mom. Last years resolution was to exercise and lose weight. Well, I stuck with the exercise even if I barely lost weight. I mean really 15 pounds in a year is shit. Let's face it, I love to eat. So if I have to only complete one resolution, I would say spending more time with mom.

I'm a crummy daughter and need to show her more that I care. She's not gonna be here forever, so I need to enjoy her now. I mean she's a pain in the ass and a bitch to boot, but she's still my mom. I kinda ignored her this whole year which is making me feel like garbage. So maybe her and I could go to the movies, out to lunch, shopping, or whatever once a week. Not only would it be good for me, but I think it would be good for her.

Well, that's it for now. try to come back next week, to keep progress on my dieting and the saga of the pee problem.

Battle of the Bulge

I didn't weigh myself today, I forgot before I ate and I never do it after I eat. So it will have to wait til next week. I think I did this subconsciously. I mean last week I totally screwed up and I'm still a little scared. Oh well, I'll wait. I did walk Thursday and today. I'm a little sore, but feel good otherwise. I didn't walk Friday because I went to the Urologist instead. I need to get fixed. I am sick and tired of peeing the bed every night and having accidents during the day sometimes. I told him the interstim isn't working any more and he needs to do something else. He gave me Toviaz to try for a month and we're going to change my frequency on the interstim. If that doesn't work, we'll find something else. He promised not to leave me hanging, but explained that my bladder is where it belongs, so it's something else. I feel like a reject.

I think I'll talk David into buying some fish to cook for supper tonight. I feel like fish, I am actually sick of chicken and pork, so maybe a good piece of fish with a salad would be nice. I think that I'll look up some recipes on the computer to find a good one to cook tonight.

I've been crocheting my afghans again. Boy, are they going to be pretty. They're the same style and similar color schemes just one is dark and the other is light. One is for my bedroom and the other for the living room. Can't wait til they're done. I also started on a shawl for myself for sitting in the living room when watching TV, it's lavender and I made up the style. Coming along nicely if I say so myself. Oh yea, I am. :) Not planning on making any tops for a while with the weight loss going on, so when these items are done I think I'll try making some sox. I mean feet stay pretty much the same. LOL

OK, I'm out of here. til next week

two posts in one week

Wow, two posts in one week. What's up with that? First I don't write for months, then I'm dropping in weekly, and now twice in one week. Something freaky with that. Don't get used to it, eventually I'll forget again, LOL. I just thought I'd share some news. I started walking yesterday. You would have laughed if you could have heard me talking to myself. Thank goodness for my ipod, it looked like I was singing. :) First I started with, "I can't do this, it hurts, I need to stop". Then I'd say; "shut up, you can do this, just keep going". This was just until the end of the road and it's a short road. LOL. I finally made it to the end of the road I was gonna turn around and go back home, you know start small short trips until I could walk longer and farther. Well I kept walking, and walking. I ended up going around the block which is about a half a mile. So it turned out to be a long walk. it was hot so I was sweating like a pig too. I finally got home and wanted to just die, actually felt good, from heat stroke. Well last night I started with mega leg cramps and I still have them today. I think I pushed it just a bit too much. But I don't care, I'll be doing it again on Thursday. I figure I'll walk every other day to start, then go to every day. When that becomes comfortable I'll add more distance. Eventually I'll be walking to and from exercise every day. I should then be dropping the pounds just a bit faster as well as toning up. I so am on a roll right now and even with the winter coming I'm not giving up. I'll just dress comfortable. Yesterday I was weighed and measured at Curves and I've lost 15 pounds and inches. My legs and arms are thinning out. My stomach is going down. Finally I'm starting to get a shape. Well, I had one before, round, now I'm going toward an hourglass. A big one, more like a three hourglass but eventually I will be an hour. OK, I had to add that info, will be back on Sunday.

new week and 2 more pounds

Well it's another week and 2 more pounds, and I am feeling great. This week is the week I get weighed and measured through curves. I find out exactly how much I've lost for the month and how many inches. They say the inches are the most important, but let me tell you, if you're not losing pounds, you feel like you're just stagnating. I know I did. I was exercising but not dieting and was dropping inches but no weight. I felt awful. But now, I feel great. Now if I was walking I'd feel a lot better and would be dropping more. I just don't seem to have the energy to do that. Also, I'm scared of the pain it causes. I know eventually I'll feel better, but the pain to start is just unbearable and irritating. Maybe I'll try today.

Went to the doctor found out my stupid asthma is turning into copd. Lucky, lucky me. Maybe now I should quit smoking. Got my flu shot and my pneumonia shot. So I'm all set for cold and flu season. Now if the allergy season would just end, things would be great. Well, not much to talk about, so I'm off to start some laundry and go take a walk, or at least try. That's all I can do, is try a little at a time until eventually I can walk a mile or so. Wish me good luck.

more weight loss

Well I came back. I lost another 2 lbs this week making the total so far 13. YAY, doing the happy dance. I definitley am doing something right. Oh I feel so good. I also reached another goal of mine, I got into a pair of jeans. Yup, I haven't been able to wear any of my jeans for a year. and I refused to buy new ones in bigger sizes so it was mostly sweats for pants. Needless to say we hardly ever went out. But now I fit in a pair of jeans. Soon I'll be in the 18's and I have a ton of those because I was that size forever. well no more. I am going down. No more fat nana with the soft pillows. Nope not me.

We played pool in a tournament this weekend and it sure felt great to wear my jeans and be comfortable. They weren't too tight where I couldn't sit down, but I did notice the legs are really baggy. I must be losing in my legs faster than my stomach. Oh well, who cares where as long as I lose, right. I'm gonna run now be back next week and hopefully I'll have more good news.

Let's try this again

Again it's been a while since I was here, and I think it's time I came back. So much is going on and I am so excited right now I need to share. I'm dieting through weight watchers online and exercising through curves. In 8 weeks I've lost 11 pounds. yup, 11 pounds. doing the happy dance. Now the good thing about WW online is that I track my food, my exercise and my weight. the bad thing is, no one to talk to. so when it steals a point because I'm not losing fast enough, I swear at the computer. I look like a mad woman cursing away at something that can not curse back. LOL. DH asked what the hell I was doing, but after explaining he really didn't understand. LOL. Now Curves is great. I go M - F @ 7 am. perfect for me as I'm an early riser. starts my day off perfectly. I can then do any appointments I have or cleaning that needs to be done. whatever, it's great, and I feel great. It takes all of 1 hour. Sunday is weigh myself day, so I think that will be blog day too.

I don't feel guilty if I skip a day because of late night pool. like last night we didn't get home until 1 am, so we didn't get to bed til after 2. no way did I make it to exercise. I needed my sleep. I have a main goal on what I want to lose and a few small goals so that I don't get disappointed. my main and big huge goal is 129 pounds. yup, I'm a big woman. my first goal is now 29 pounds, the next goal is 33 pounds, then 33 pounds, then 34 pounds. that should do it. I can do this, and I will. I look for no miracles just hard work. my health is fine, so I shouldn't have any worries. If things go according to my plan, I should loose the 29 lbs in about 3 to 3 1/2 months. so by the end of this year I should be looking good. I can do this. I will do this. soon as more weight comes off, I will start walking. It's just right now is really really hard.

I haven't been crocheting for a while, been babysitting all summer for the grandkidz. it was interesting to say the least. but with the seasons changing I think I will be getting back into it. there are some things I would like to make. I still need to take some pics of things I've made and download them to the computer. which now that the computer is working right, I crashed it as usual, I can.

well I'm off for the day, be returning on Sunday.

Snow, snow, and yet still more snow

Just like the top says, it's snowing again. Like we really need more snow. There's no place to put anymore. We have been buried for the past 2 weeks. Seems like the norm is a storm a week with at least a foot if not more. I mean the snow is pretty and all, and it is winter, but let some of it melt first. :) Oh well, good reason to stay in and crochet.

Not like I need a reason, but it makes it simpler if I do have one. :) I don't need to have hubby complaining that I'm being lazy or anything. I need to stop procrastinating and get some of my projects done. I just have so many things going at once again, and not just crochet. I have ceramics to finish, items in crochet that need buttons or elastic. One piece even needs to be lined it's only a year old). I've also got a house to clean, which is normally easy with only 2 of us here, but I have carpets to shampoo but winter is really not the time for that, and the rest of my cabinet downsizing. At least the cabinets are half done. By the spring they should be fully done. I have to wait until then so that Tiffany can take what she wants and then I can offer up the rest on freecycle or craigs list.

I need to downsize my yarn stash. I need to get pics of the yarn I'm gonna sell on eBay, (again another spring project it's way to cold to clean the back room and attic) so that I can re-organize my craft projects. I also do exercising 3 days a week, and pool 2 times a week. Damn, I am a busy bee. And let's not forget my computer time. E-mails to read and answer, surfing the Internet (for cool new patterns), and playing games. I need to get organized better.

Now to top it all off, my lichen planus came back, and this time it's on my head, face, and in my eye. I can control the itching with benadryl, but the pain is irritating as all hell. My fibromyalgia has been acting up as well lately, but I deal with it. I'm lucky that I'm not as bad as some people with it. Went to the eye doctor Friday, and there is no running away now, I need bi-focals. So, I will be getting my glasses special made from New York because they have a discount price for veterans and their family members. And with hubby being a disabled vet, I qualify. I should do fine the doc said because I wear reading glasses now on the edge of my nose so I'm used to a line being there. I hope so. Hubby thinks I don't wear my glasses because I'm vain, and one thing I'm not, is vain. I just hate the adjustment period you have to go through to be comfortable with them. I just have to admit it, I have no patience. LOL

I'm done with computer time now, at least til dinner time, so off to work on some projects. Until next time.

Been away a long time

Wow, it's been almost a year since I was here. So what's happened in that time? Not too much. I went to the concert and it was great. Carrie put on a fantastic show. Went to another concert in May, this one was Sugarland and that was great music. Then 2 days after the Sugarland concert I had knee replacement surgery. That wasn't too bad, I think the worst part was the gaining weight from not getting around like I was used too and losing muscle strength. Now I'm going to curves 3 days a week for strength and weight loss along with dieting. I'm not expecting a miracle, but I sure would like one. :) So I've given myself a year to lose weight and get stronger. As soon as the winter is over and spring is here, (I dislike the cold), I will add walking to my routine as well.

Speaking of winter, wow what a snowy one this is. I mean a storm a week. we have so much snow on the ground right now you can't see anything but mountains of it and in some places it's taller than people walking down the street. And they say a little more coming next week. It's gonna take the whole spring and half the summer just to melt it.

Went to the doctor the other day and I need bi-focals, (well, I knew that), but I found out I'm borderline diabetic and borderline for glaucoma. Lucky me. I think the dieting and weight loss will help with the diabetes, but eye screening is all I can do for the other. Most people that wear glasses go to the doctor every year to every other. Not me, I go ever 6 months. This is what I get for getting older. LOL

As for crocheting, I finished 2 tops for me, and a hat for David. Now I'm working on 2 afghans, sox, and curtains for the kitchen. The afghans are identical except for color and they are made up of octagons, the sox are for me (I always wanted to make sox), and the curtains are in thread for a change of pace. Just something different to work on.

Well, that's it for today. I'll get some pics of the tops I made and as each item I'm working on gets done, I'll take pics of them as well.